When he comes back though it does not mean the same thing for the both of you. To her it proves her theory correct that in fact he loves and adores her, he cheated and left her only as a mistake but she is his soul mate. For him? He is probably between girlfriends and wanted someone he knows well so that he can manipulate well into giving him what he wants. You are easy. Its sickening though.
These harsh realities normally occur after the first real breakup. Normally the guy does something wrong (cheats) and it crushes her and she cant forgive him so they break up. Everyone who is close to the couple complains about this break up and always put in their 2 cents worth (ave nidina). They deal with the breakup independently, the guy continues dating other girls, partying and drinking. For her? She was miserable, crying and busy quoting bible verses and Joyce Meyer in her social media statuses.She was so obsessed with the fact that he left her that she will bargain and want him back just to prove to herself that she is desirable, she doesnt even care that he cheated now. Other men pursuing her fall back like water on a ducks back, akababoni ngisho ukubaboni. Its as if akuphileki without him. She takes him back or she throws herself at him and he can only play along, I mean who wouldn't.
He comes back to you ngoba uyisilima.
Things are never the same, its either (through the work of God) he changes and he becomes everything she wants or... Things are worse off than before. Phela while you were on a "break" things change and evolve, both of you have met other people and have forgotten your old routine. The conversation is not the same because someone will be spiteful when they get a chance, or there are comments about the cause for the break up initially. Sigh. Bulindelen though? The sex is not the same because when you make love to him, in the back of your mind you think about all the other women and also the cold nights you spent alone crying over him. The jokes are not very funny because there is a wall between you now. He is cold to you and akakuncengi. If you arent available, someone else is :( and he doesnt even care if you find out about it. Vele you will take him back.
Vele vele whats a break? What is a purpose? So you can go and cheat?
I reckon this is what lead to the concept of "ma'am". Girls would say "imina umem, bangamthatha nje but he is mine". How can you call yourself uMa'am and stay in a relationship of convenience, he cheats, uyamithisa yonkindawo, udla imali yakho or physically abuses you. All for the sake of security? It comes at a high price I suppose... Are we that fearsome of being single that we will succumb to such rubbish relationships? We don't judge though, I mean sibadala.
The worst weakness we have as women is that when we are in love we exaggerate the things that make us happy and use that to beg ourselves when he does something wrong. "Atleast uyangilanda emsebenzini..." "Atleast Ive met his parents..."
A man will use you if you want him to. Suck you dry and move on to the next person. Lapho you are busy calling yourself uMa'am.
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